Recently, even though im not in relationship myself, i have been takin in alot of emotional baggage, from my frens.
"She doesn't like me.."
"..wat is she trying to do?"
"..im not worth it.."
I dunno why but i tin i haf become a free love counsellor. I tin everybody knows tt i'm soo damn free to listen to everyone's problems. Tin if i started chargin fees to everyone i can be a millionare. Wow, seriously, the world is so full of problems. Hmm, think ive said so much to other ppl tt i think i've not much to say now. Im listening so much to other ppl but nobody has the time to listen to my own problems. My frenships i feel, is like so 1-sided. So irritated and disappointed in everyone. Why does everyone take me for granted. I think i need a job now so badly to help me to stop thinkin abt stuff happenin ard me. Dammit! I hate it when other ppl's problems become mine. So reminds me of being in the Army.
Sometimes i feel really misunderstood and the people that i want to be with is not around for me to confide in. I feel like shit man. I need a gd night's rest and i need a new hobby. I need to learn somethin, make new frenz. I'm soooo bored..
Luckily stil got my upcoming performance to concentrate on...
S.T.O.P.I.T.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Phuket!
okok. i noe its been sometime since i came back but i just haf to share this SUPER anticipated trip since 2007.
well, i went w mr ian my super buddy from BMT and i soo had a ball of a time.
we were so organisin and plannin our day-to-day itinerary since wks before to make sure we don waste time there. got alot of help from frenz (thx rau!) and it was a wonderful trip!
well, i went w mr ian my super buddy from BMT and i soo had a ball of a time.
we were so organisin and plannin our day-to-day itinerary since wks before to make sure we don waste time there. got alot of help from frenz (thx rau!) and it was a wonderful trip!
first day was like so exhilarating to the pt where i couldnt really believe t'was finally the day man. almost got left at the airport by our taxi driver cuz there was somebody else who had the same name as me. n stupid ian had to almost lost his luggage at the airport. wat a bad way to start the holiday. everythin was smooth aft tt; the guesthouse was q
uite gd, worth the money, alot of commodities ard, quite close to beach (which we eventually didnt even go to spend time at) played arcade at jungceylon shopping centre and had the first taste of fast food in thai. KFC! the cups were damn big and we had tuna cum mixed vege for sides. we kinda made frenz w this tour lady who gave us cheap rates for this tour we wanted to go to the next day to island hopping and Fantasea.
2nd day: wow. island hopping james bond island, bat cave. seacanoe n we got so tanned. it was really a gd experince. soo worth the money. the beaches there, smooth sand, super clear water. and aft a whole day of being in the sun, thai massage! EXCELLENT! nothin can describe it man. heaven on earth. (and no i didnt get any special thank you v much) then we had a super dinner ( i called it "OMG LOBSTER") at a place w a live band. oh man i stil rmbr the bad singer.. (should juz stick to playin his congos)
3rd day, we kinda got sleepy n woke up late. ok though, cuz we wanted to make our own way to kathu waterfall. so cool! i got to ride on the busy streets of phuket! kinda scary at the start with all the no traffic lights and road sings in thai. and i cant believe i got fined for not wearing a helmet. NOTE FOR EVERYONE WHO D
OESNT NOE: THE PASSENGER DOESNT NEED A HELMET, THE RIDER DOES! stupid waste of money. take tuktuk to
police station some more, (officially the ONLY tuktuk ride i took for the whole trip) we eventually got to our desitnation la; kathu waterfall (aft askin for some un-understandable directions in Thai) quite dissapointin cuz it wasnt the rainy season so not much water to play in, can wash feet onli. niwae ian got to eat his first pad thai. not bad. tt night was phuket fantases; the play cum thai trad dance, circus, magic show tt was quite entertainin actually. quite famous attraction actually. aft tt, somethin kinda happened tt made me feel quite down so we juz headed back aft tt to sleep (sorry ian)
4th day, we finally felt the SUN was soo giving us such a strain tt so went to other side
of patong and when to another beach (Karon) for b'fast. (where u had to pay to lie on the beach chairs, so idiotic) where ian had his 2nd plate of pad thai. wasnt as hapenin. we decided to skip gg to the beach. and go SHOPPING instead. (loves it!) ultimate motive to go thai, hah. got quite alot fo stuff back. for frenz and family. i HAVE to say this. half of the ppl there tin im a thai boi. tin they perceive tt i'm ian's tour guide or somethin. DAMN IRRITATING! wad did we do tt night? hmm, oh we went to macs for dinner n i took my most fav pis throughout the whole trip. WITH A MONKEY! OMG! CAN U BELIEVE IT! wow i was so excited and the monkey was sooo cute, so tame. i couldnt believe my eyes. went back to hotel aft tt and had ian 3rd and last servin of pad thai (ok if u are wonderin y we kept tryin was bcuz i was lookin for the best pad thai) which we found right under our hotel. lemme tell u the best food come from those street stalls i tell ya. t'was damn gd. the perfect plate of pad thai.
the last day, we had finally come to the end of our holiday. and ian was kinda shocked by the amt of money tt he spent on the trip aft we settled the hotel fees n stuff. aiyo, we were there to enjoy niwae. so no pt thinkin abt it. it was a damn swell holiday and im glad to be back safe w ian.
thx ian! for everythin! and for everyone else who were thinkin me back then in s'pore.
til the next holiday!
M.I.S.S.E.S
uite gd, worth the money, alot of commodities ard, quite close to beach (which we eventually didnt even go to spend time at) played arcade at jungceylon shopping centre and had the first taste of fast food in thai. KFC! the cups were damn big and we had tuna cum mixed vege for sides. we kinda made frenz w this tour lady who gave us cheap rates for this tour we wanted to go to the next day to island hopping and Fantasea.
2nd day: wow. island hopping james bond island, bat cave. seacanoe n we got so tanned. it was really a gd experince. soo worth the money. the beaches there, smooth sand, super clear water. and aft a whole day of being in the sun, thai massage! EXCELLENT! nothin can describe it man. heaven on earth. (and no i didnt get any special thank you v much) then we had a super dinner ( i called it "OMG LOBSTER") at a place w a live band. oh man i stil rmbr the bad singer.. (should juz stick to playin his congos)
3rd day, we kinda got sleepy n woke up late. ok though, cuz we wanted to make our own way to kathu waterfall. so cool! i got to ride on the busy streets of phuket! kinda scary at the start with all the no traffic lights and road sings in thai. and i cant believe i got fined for not wearing a helmet. NOTE FOR EVERYONE WHO D
OESNT NOE: THE PASSENGER DOESNT NEED A HELMET, THE RIDER DOES! stupid waste of money. take tuktuk to
police station some more, (officially the ONLY tuktuk ride i took for the whole trip) we eventually got to our desitnation la; kathu waterfall (aft askin for some un-understandable directions in Thai) quite dissapointin cuz it wasnt the rainy season so not much water to play in, can wash feet onli. niwae ian got to eat his first pad thai. not bad. tt night was phuket fantases; the play cum thai trad dance, circus, magic show tt was quite entertainin actually. quite famous attraction actually. aft tt, somethin kinda happened tt made me feel quite down so we juz headed back aft tt to sleep (sorry ian)4th day, we finally felt the SUN was soo giving us such a strain tt so went to other side
of patong and when to another beach (Karon) for b'fast. (where u had to pay to lie on the beach chairs, so idiotic) where ian had his 2nd plate of pad thai. wasnt as hapenin. we decided to skip gg to the beach. and go SHOPPING instead. (loves it!) ultimate motive to go thai, hah. got quite alot fo stuff back. for frenz and family. i HAVE to say this. half of the ppl there tin im a thai boi. tin they perceive tt i'm ian's tour guide or somethin. DAMN IRRITATING! wad did we do tt night? hmm, oh we went to macs for dinner n i took my most fav pis throughout the whole trip. WITH A MONKEY! OMG! CAN U BELIEVE IT! wow i was so excited and the monkey was sooo cute, so tame. i couldnt believe my eyes. went back to hotel aft tt and had ian 3rd and last servin of pad thai (ok if u are wonderin y we kept tryin was bcuz i was lookin for the best pad thai) which we found right under our hotel. lemme tell u the best food come from those street stalls i tell ya. t'was damn gd. the perfect plate of pad thai.the last day, we had finally come to the end of our holiday. and ian was kinda shocked by the amt of money tt he spent on the trip aft we settled the hotel fees n stuff. aiyo, we were there to enjoy niwae. so no pt thinkin abt it. it was a damn swell holiday and im glad to be back safe w ian.
thx ian! for everythin! and for everyone else who were thinkin me back then in s'pore.
til the next holiday!
M.I.S.S.E.S
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Purpose in life
Wow, what a way to come back from a long-awaited holiday. ive nv felt so emotionally-driven in my life before. so many ppl gettin on my nerves at the same time.
i tin its amazing how ppl can start comparing lives when they dont even know how difficult one's life has been.
'wow, how perfect ur life is...'
'u haf it all man...'
'...u get invited to all the parties'
seriously, being so pessimistic n soo happy abt life can have its downfalls too. ppl tend to get the wrong impression tt u're livin such a gd life and u don haf as much problems as they have in life. that you're not workin as hard as them in life and that u're juz sayin things n makin stuff up to make ppl feel better. sometimes i duno why i even bother to make ppl feel happy cuz im soo not appreciated. i noe im not the apple of (haha apple) everyone's eye but i try my darndest to make my fren's happy of course.
well bein on holiday for 5 days, n being w who i was with has made me realise somethin. at the end of the day u can actually really just depend on urself, cuz only YOU know wat u need and what u feel , and wat you've been thru. nobody knows how 'perfect' ur life is except u urself. so i shall juz say tt my life is as perfect as i wanted it to be.
well since im at it might as well make this entry as much of a rant as i can. i hate ppl who take advantage of me. like frenz who onli come to me wen they haf problems in their r/s. wen they're fine, im like a nobody to them. how irritatin. i guess u cant really expect tt much of ppl also la cuz everyone's caught up in their own lives but i tin it's kinda annoyin wen u can really tell tt they're juz talkin to u cuz they need ur advice.
is tt all wat frenz are for? i used to tin tt frenz will juz be there even wen u don need them. juz there to hang out or chill or juz be present.. well.. so much for that..
"happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, mum and dad and all my frens"
S.U.P.B.U.R.E.E
i tin its amazing how ppl can start comparing lives when they dont even know how difficult one's life has been.
'wow, how perfect ur life is...'
'u haf it all man...'
'...u get invited to all the parties'
seriously, being so pessimistic n soo happy abt life can have its downfalls too. ppl tend to get the wrong impression tt u're livin such a gd life and u don haf as much problems as they have in life. that you're not workin as hard as them in life and that u're juz sayin things n makin stuff up to make ppl feel better. sometimes i duno why i even bother to make ppl feel happy cuz im soo not appreciated. i noe im not the apple of (haha apple) everyone's eye but i try my darndest to make my fren's happy of course.
well bein on holiday for 5 days, n being w who i was with has made me realise somethin. at the end of the day u can actually really just depend on urself, cuz only YOU know wat u need and what u feel , and wat you've been thru. nobody knows how 'perfect' ur life is except u urself. so i shall juz say tt my life is as perfect as i wanted it to be.
well since im at it might as well make this entry as much of a rant as i can. i hate ppl who take advantage of me. like frenz who onli come to me wen they haf problems in their r/s. wen they're fine, im like a nobody to them. how irritatin. i guess u cant really expect tt much of ppl also la cuz everyone's caught up in their own lives but i tin it's kinda annoyin wen u can really tell tt they're juz talkin to u cuz they need ur advice.
is tt all wat frenz are for? i used to tin tt frenz will juz be there even wen u don need them. juz there to hang out or chill or juz be present.. well.. so much for that..
"happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, mum and dad and all my frens"
S.U.P.B.U.R.E.E
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