Being a bitch

i dunno, sometimes i really feel tt im really such a bitch. the way i treat especially my gd frenz. or mebbe juz to hide my true feelings. but i've always tot tt my closest frenz would be in the best position to really und my character. but i guess everyone has their limits. sometimes, i juz cannot take ppl who are over sensitive. oversensitivity n me.. don click. loggerheads. ill juz keep makin the situation worse. n im a heck care kinda person (lest it's somebody really special) i suck la sometimes n i feel so bad abt it sometimes. im juz not v gd at expressing my feelings to someone.

im sry to the ppl out there hu ive hurt in one way or another, cuz sometimes i don even realise it myself cuz im too full of myself n my life. well, it is my life. ok bye!

The bottom of the shallow pond.

It's amazing how sometimes u meet the most interesting ppl in the world where u tin u're direct opposites but ur frenship somehow juz works. n sometimes u juz feel everythin juz falls into a whirlpool in the drain, or other forms of insignificant water sources, like a shallow pond. u'd think tt ppl accept u for who you are at some pt or another, and suddenly, comin from nowhere, like a massive hurricane, everythin is swept away n u're left w nothin. n me bein me, i guess i cant juz leave everythin to be like tt, i had to contemplate abt it, ponder on it, crack my brain... like bloody hell im not busy enough w werk so everythin becomes this v big thing... all derived by myself n my alter ego appletoe..
really sucks how sometimes u juz cant put certain things into words or u juz am not able to tell somebody somethin cuz tt person juz doesnt und who u really are, or juz cant accept how the world works. bein shallow is easy, cuz u juz haf to accept how u urself tin n see life as, y should u even bother mixing ard w the world then, juz grow up in ur own tiny tiny world under the big rock. certain things tt u say in life to other ppl i guess u juz muz watch n not tin tt everyone will accept it like u do. sometimes u don feel like it but u juz muz tin abt other ppl's feelings n how they view certain things in life. u nv knoe wat the other finds ok n not cuz everyone has secrets.. i guess life is juz like tt isn't it?
at least i noe tt they are a few people out there hu actually stil care.

Nothin. Hurts. More. Than. Urself