Pri Sch kids!

A day ago i was teaching Yio Chu Kang pri, "Ethnic Fusion". 'twas kind of a last min contact thing but then i stil went cuz i was kinda short of cash, even now. well 'twas s'posed to be a mixture indian, malay and chinese cultural dance. simple stuff for pri 2 kids. and i tell u... the kids were like SUPER DAMN CUTE!! MY GOD! i stil cant get over the excitement. i really felt like i was a kids central show host la wen i was there! like, "Hi Kids! Bye Kids!" haha. really dam fun and i really want to go back again next wk. but then might not be able to cuz i might be replaced by someone.

Cuz next month i will be flying to 9 diff ASEAN countries with 4 other people for history in the making. kind of like a freelance project thingy. kind of a big thing so i tin it'll be publicised soon. juz went for the meeting and i tell u its gonna be SUPER busy for the 5 of us over there man. looking at it... i tin im gonna need alot of sleep wen i finally come back. estimated time frame out of s'pore: 19apr-22may. 2nd time ill not be in s'pore in my life. hopefully it'll be a gd experience for me la. at least ill haf maria to keep me company over there.

Today was the very first art class for pri sch tt i started teaching. Woodgrove pri 6 students, wire sculpture. was abit of a rush for me this mornin as i had to prep quite a number of stuff for class. almost got myself into trouble as i tot i din prepare enough stuff for 2 classes consecutively. phew! 1st obstacle over many, many more to go. am i really doing the right thing?

well, i kinda realised i'd much prefer to teach dance rather than art cuz i guess i dun haf to dress SO formal for tt as u've to be more carefree and flexible. and at least i get to move my body and teach ppl dance. haha. i soo need to set my priorities right man. i don like the feeling of not being in control of my life.

S.H.I.T.

Pulau Ubin

Last Sunday, (which was yest), i went to Pulau Ubin with Maria and it was a tiring but swell time...
We rented bikes for 3 bucks til 6pm but then were there onli at 3plus la, haha. so late thx to me. but then we stil enjoyed ourselves. stupid brother of mine bluffed me saying the camera was fully-charged but it went flat the moment i rented the bike la. din even managed to get tt many pictures.
Officially, tt has to be one of the least developed areas in s'pore la. and tt was the first time i actually stepped on tt island. thx to a bunch of ppl who totally forgot abt me a few yrs back wen they went there. stil dare to ask me why i din come. -pissed off.
Tt place is really untouched man. (well mebbe only by the villagers there, should i call them tt?) anyways, really had a BALL of a time taking photos there man. and also cycling up and down slope. got quite a bit of exercise there on a bloody sunday. but it was all gd. gd company, gd fun, gd time. too bad we couldnt stay there longer cuz there were no streetlamps. it would haf felt like brunei jungle at night. (like as if i've experienced it before) everything is soo rundown there and maria loves takin pictures of old those old school stuff so she loves it.. needless to say she wants to go there again.
At the end of the day we kinda decided to be cam whores and take pictures of ourselves in the best lighting of the day: sunset. wow. we sure took alot of emo pictures man. its amazing how the sun can make u look so gd. haha. aft tt we went back to changi village and had queued up for one of the best nasi lemak in s'pore. (im sure u've heard of tt place. really worth the wait as we sat down at changi beach to enjoy the sumptuos meal w sugarcane. wow, excellent sunday man. well, half a day la.
Then we went to meet taufiq at tampines to juz chill out. wow how long has it been since i saw tt guy... actually jus a wk ago la, haha. one of my best buddies in 1SIR. really thru thick and thin. bloody ass. seldom go the east side so muz say hi. i felt kinda bad actually wen i couldnt meet him the day before so i wanted to make up for it tt's why la, haha.

On a side note, im stil in the process of finishin my mini project of makin the ant and now ive run out of wires so im stoppin there. i labelled the diff parts of the sculpture so it'd be easier for my kids to follow step by step. i hope everything goes well. i juz got a call from Peter today actually and he said tt ive been shortlisted to be the videographer for him wen he goes overseas so now i juz haf to ask my 2 bosses whether anot i can be replaced for the period tt i'd be flying in april to june. im sure it'll be a gd experience and an opp of a lifetime man. imagine... 10 diff countries in 5wks! imagine the number of pictures i can take within tt amt of time. hah. i really wanna go man. and anyways i kinda scrapped commonwealth sec's hiphop class cuz it got changed to thursday mornins. so it clashed w my art class. so sad.. i was really enjoying doin tt class.
Really makes me wonder... what do i ultimately wanna do in the future...

D.I.L.E.M.M.A

Gotta get busy...

Recently, I have been looking for a job from everywhere (mostly as a teacher).

Starting from next week actually i'll be teachin quite a few classes:-

1. Commonwealth Sec, Hiphop
2. Lakeside Pri, Creative Mvmt (whatever the hell tt is...)
3. Woodgrove Pri, Art Club and
4. Art class : wire sculpture

So as u can see... on the right is the process of ME trying to figure out how to make the bloody sculpture. Quite fun la actually cuz i LOVE handicrafts.. (only it takes time) Hmmm, looks kinda ugly in this pic tho. Doesn't matter. I'll have a separate nicer lookin model to show my kids. Sounds like life model, haha.

I dunno whether im takin the right path by becoming a teacher but i've always like being a role model and being able to help ppl improve their lives and help them in whichever way i can. (wow, sounds so benevolent) so hero ideal.. haha. mebbe cuz i juz watched transformers..


Other than tt i guess ive been occupying myself with my dance troupe (SFA) and my salsa lessons i guess. Just been elected publicity dept for my troupe so it's gonna be quite a busy end of year for me as there's gonna be a massive production at the end of the yr.

Actually there are 2 more jobs which are pending. One of which is to be a Media Arts t'cher. I tin tt one should be teachin abt filming stuff la. And one more, more appealing one is one which i am to be either a photographer or videographer for this guy called Peter who's travelling to overseas to hold shows for children of the various countries. It's for a gd cause.. It'll be a GREAT experience if i get selected for tt one. (fingers crossed)

So hopefully after this I'll be busier and ill think lesser abt life and stuff if my brain was much more occupied. til next time then! wish me luck!

B.I.K.E. Woohoo!

New look!

Well in celebration of the new look to my blog, i shall haf a NEW POST! Haha.

Hmm, i shan't just talk about tt then. What's been happening in my life right now... Well i'd say the most exciting thing would be to teach hiphop class at 2 diff schs recently. (something tt i'd nv haf imagined i'd do in my whole life) didnt even attend ANY hiphop class stil wanna teach, haha. well better than staying at hm doing nothing right? only source of income for now. but i guess tt's the perk of my life now. other than being more and more involved in my dance troupe in SFA (S'pore Foochow Assoc) now every saturday is really being more and more of a torture for me as im being stretched to the limits of my muscles. (oh my aching, aging muscles) and being surrounded by all those young people isnt really helping. i tell u, im damn not flexible. tin its in the genes. but being so free all the time to pursue my passion in dance, i'm kinda getting used to this lifestyle.

Oh man, i sooo need a job right now. feel so aimless and im thinking abt things too much. (since there's so much space up there and everything) i hate doing tt! i'm s'posed to be like carefree and happy and... ok nvm. haa. im being ridiculous. i HAF to think abt stuff once in awhile right? ok i haf officially made this post just redundant, haha.

i shall juz share to quotes i read recently tt i feel makes me feel gd, haha.

-Wherever there is one of us the other is present-
-As long as people have friends to share their sadness.
it becomes easier to bear.-

B.R.O.K.E.

Emotional baggage

Recently, even though im not in relationship myself, i have been takin in alot of emotional baggage, from my frens.
"She doesn't like me.."
"..wat is she trying to do?"
"..im not worth it.."
I dunno why but i tin i haf become a free love counsellor. I tin everybody knows tt i'm soo damn free to listen to everyone's problems. Tin if i started chargin fees to everyone i can be a millionare. Wow, seriously, the world is so full of problems. Hmm, think ive said so much to other ppl tt i think i've not much to say now. Im listening so much to other ppl but nobody has the time to listen to my own problems. My frenships i feel, is like so 1-sided. So irritated and disappointed in everyone. Why does everyone take me for granted. I think i need a job now so badly to help me to stop thinkin abt stuff happenin ard me. Dammit! I hate it when other ppl's problems become mine. So reminds me of being in the Army.
Sometimes i feel really misunderstood and the people that i want to be with is not around for me to confide in. I feel like shit man. I need a gd night's rest and i need a new hobby. I need to learn somethin, make new frenz. I'm soooo bored..
Luckily stil got my upcoming performance to concentrate on...

S.T.O.P.I.T.

Phuket!

okok. i noe its been sometime since i came back but i just haf to share this SUPER anticipated trip since 2007.
well, i went w mr ian my super buddy from BMT and i soo had a ball of a time.
we were so organisin and plannin our day-to-day itinerary since wks before to make sure we don waste time there. got alot of help from frenz (thx rau!) and it was a wonderful trip!

first day was like so exhilarating to the pt where i couldnt really believe t'was finally the day man. almost got left at the airport by our taxi driver cuz there was somebody else who had the same name as me. n stupid ian had to almost lost his luggage at the airport. wat a bad way to start the holiday. everythin was smooth aft tt; the guesthouse was quite gd, worth the money, alot of commodities ard, quite close to beach (which we eventually didnt even go to spend time at) played arcade at jungceylon shopping centre and had the first taste of fast food in thai. KFC! the cups were damn big and we had tuna cum mixed vege for sides. we kinda made frenz w this tour lady who gave us cheap rates for this tour we wanted to go to the next day to island hopping and Fantasea.

2nd day: wow. island hopping james bond island, bat cave. seacanoe n we got so tanned. it was really a gd experince. soo worth the money. the beaches there, smooth sand, super clear water. and aft a whole day of being in the sun, thai massage! EXCELLENT! nothin can describe it man. heaven on earth. (and no i didnt get any special thank you v much) then we had a super dinner ( i called it "OMG LOBSTER") at a place w a live band. oh man i stil rmbr the bad singer.. (should juz stick to playin his congos)

3rd day, we kinda got sleepy n woke up late. ok though, cuz we wanted to make our own way to kathu waterfall. so cool! i got to ride on the busy streets of phuket! kinda scary at the start with all the no traffic lights and road sings in thai. and i cant believe i got fined for not wearing a helmet. NOTE FOR EVERYONE WHO DOESNT NOE: THE PASSENGER DOESNT NEED A HELMET, THE RIDER DOES! stupid waste of money. take tuktuk to police station some more, (officially the ONLY tuktuk ride i took for the whole trip) we eventually got to our desitnation la; kathu waterfall (aft askin for some un-understandable directions in Thai) quite dissapointin cuz it wasnt the rainy season so not much water to play in, can wash feet onli. niwae ian got to eat his first pad thai. not bad. tt night was phuket fantases; the play cum thai trad dance, circus, magic show tt was quite entertainin actually. quite famous attraction actually. aft tt, somethin kinda happened tt made me feel quite down so we juz headed back aft tt to sleep (sorry ian)

4th day, we finally felt the SUN was soo giving us such a strain tt so went to other side of patong and when to another beach (Karon) for b'fast. (where u had to pay to lie on the beach chairs, so idiotic) where ian had his 2nd plate of pad thai. wasnt as hapenin. we decided to skip gg to the beach. and go SHOPPING instead. (loves it!) ultimate motive to go thai, hah. got quite alot fo stuff back. for frenz and family. i HAVE to say this. half of the ppl there tin im a thai boi. tin they perceive tt i'm ian's tour guide or somethin. DAMN IRRITATING! wad did we do tt night? hmm, oh we went to macs for dinner n i took my most fav pis throughout the whole trip. WITH A MONKEY! OMG! CAN U BELIEVE IT! wow i was so excited and the monkey was sooo cute, so tame. i couldnt believe my eyes. went back to hotel aft tt and had ian 3rd and last servin of pad thai (ok if u are wonderin y we kept tryin was bcuz i was lookin for the best pad thai) which we found right under our hotel. lemme tell u the best food come from those street stalls i tell ya. t'was damn gd. the perfect plate of pad thai.

the last day, we had finally come to the end of our holiday. and ian was kinda shocked by the amt of money tt he spent on the trip aft we settled the hotel fees n stuff. aiyo, we were there to enjoy niwae. so no pt thinkin abt it. it was a damn swell holiday and im glad to be back safe w ian.

thx ian! for everythin! and for everyone else who were thinkin me back then in s'pore.
til the next holiday!

M.I.S.S.E.S

Purpose in life

Wow, what a way to come back from a long-awaited holiday. ive nv felt so emotionally-driven in my life before. so many ppl gettin on my nerves at the same time.

i tin its amazing how ppl can start comparing lives when they dont even know how difficult one's life has been.

'wow, how perfect ur life is...'
'u haf it all man...'
'...u get invited to all the parties'

seriously, being so pessimistic n soo happy abt life can have its downfalls too. ppl tend to get the wrong impression tt u're livin such a gd life and u don haf as much problems as they have in life. that you're not workin as hard as them in life and that u're juz sayin things n makin stuff up to make ppl feel better. sometimes i duno why i even bother to make ppl feel happy cuz im soo not appreciated. i noe im not the apple of (haha apple) everyone's eye but i try my darndest to make my fren's happy of course.

well bein on holiday for 5 days, n being w who i was with has made me realise somethin. at the end of the day u can actually really just depend on urself, cuz only YOU know wat u need and what u feel , and wat you've been thru. nobody knows how 'perfect' ur life is except u urself. so i shall juz say tt my life is as perfect as i wanted it to be.

well since im at it might as well make this entry as much of a rant as i can. i hate ppl who take advantage of me. like frenz who onli come to me wen they haf problems in their r/s. wen they're fine, im like a nobody to them. how irritatin. i guess u cant really expect tt much of ppl also la cuz everyone's caught up in their own lives but i tin it's kinda annoyin wen u can really tell tt they're juz talkin to u cuz they need ur advice.

is tt all wat frenz are for? i used to tin tt frenz will juz be there even wen u don need them. juz there to hang out or chill or juz be present.. well.. so much for that..

"happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, mum and dad and all my frens"

S.U.P.B.U.R.E.E